The eggy end is coming

Hmm... the debate finals were more entertaining than I expected. Raffles vs Hwa Chong (the team that beat us in the prelims) Well I was kinda rooting for HCI at first, but once I heard Raffles speak? I knew RJC had it in the bag (Raffles JC... not Russell Jude Chander :P) Well Raffles won, and it was an unanimous decision amongst all 7 adjudicators, which is like a first I think. HC has style, in my opinion, but RJ out their case forward stronger, and their 3rd speaker was excellent. The HC team was slightly different from the one that beat us; the 2nd speaker Elgina (who happens to be Jas' friend) was replaced by someone else. Pity, cuz from what I remember Elgina was probably the better speaker. But it wad a damn good debate, with risky stuff like definition arguments and multi-tier rebuttals. HC's 3rd speaker is cute. Think her name was Aileen?

The debate ended at 5, which left me 2 minutes to travel from Tiong Bahru to home, change, grab my bike and ride down to ECP if I was going to meet the 05S15 gang of guys on time. So naturally I was late. Met Ah Lam, Ah Boy, Pai Kia, Pui Kia and Meng Nan at the skate shop at ECP at 7 plus. Cycle a bit (Ah Boy and Meng Nan on blades) den went off to 85 hawker centre near Bedok Stadium to makan and lim jiu... eh sorrie lim jui. Although Lam and me parked our bikes nearby within sight, I still chained them up together. You could say I've grown a bit paranoid after Kit's bike got stolen, and he just turned his back for a minute.

Later went to SeWen EleWen to buy drinks and went to some nearby park to slack and kao peh. That's when we coined all the nicks for the 05S15 guys that I'll use and are listed below. Pai Kia and Ah Lam tried their hands at skating for the first time. Wah n00bs :P haha but they caught on quick, especially Alex (must say this sort of thing or else he will kao peh in my tagboard). That night was damn scandalous cuz Pai Kia was talking about cai tao kueh den he said something to the effect of "I like Eggy" Aiseh! We all immediately thought of that girl in our class and laughed our asses off. Now Pai Kia and Meng Nan are having a quarrel on the class blog :P

Had a teens connect meeting just now after mass. Apparently Sam has a new boyfriend...again *groan* So yeah it was Cheryl, Sam, Edwin, Victor and Juliana there. After meeting we went hanging around the mall, like we always do, and talking about stuff (which included extremists Christians again) I dunno why, but ever since young, I've always had this feeling that we're too confortable, and somewhere in the near future, the world, or at least the world as we know it, is going to end. Sooner or later, there's gonna be this big conflict, like a war, only more in depth or sth, and we're all gonna be dragged into it, like a Voldemort sort of conflict. I can't fathom what it'll be like when I grow old cuz I dunno if I'll (or we'll) live that long. It's like in the book of Revelations, and like the Matrix: the world as we know it will end and be annihilated and restarted, and only a select few of us will be saved and left to rstart humanity or something like that. I dunno if it's just this overimaginative mind of mine, or my desperation for the norm and routine of everyday life to end, but that's what I feel.

And while we're on that notion of the end of the world, check out this Flash animation on that same subject...funny!

http://www.endofworld.net/

And here's the list of 05S15 nicks for future reference.

Alex - Ah Lam (class treasurer), Rico
Hubert - Kuku Bird, Pui Kia
Charles - Fishy
Yongquan - Ah Boy
Hong Kuang - Dayang (mei ren yu! :P)
Hong Boon - Meng Nan
Gabriel Lee - Muhd Ali bin Tok Tok (long sia, so it's just Ali now)
Gabriel Yip - Dadi (tou fa you mei you luan?)
Justin - Aerodynamic (hairless mahz...)
Eugene - Cute Boy, Cycling Stick (I gave him that one :P)
Tak Shing - Ah Hock, Blur Cock, Takfik Blurtisah (wah this guy got a lot sia)
Roy - Pai Kia
Kah Chou - at first it was Scheming ("Wah scheming sia!") den Scheming Kah Chou, Scheming K and finally SK, aka SK2, Soo Kee Jewellery and Suay Kia
Wesley - Chee Bai Kia (according to Ah Boy)

Cheers

Talk about national disgrace

Just in case you haven't noticed ( -_-") I've changed the blog music. This one is called Snapshot by Fluke. Don't have the lyrics, and neither will I bother cuz the thing I like about this song is the beats and mainly the feel.

Well Thursday was uneventful for most of the day, unless you count the fact that I (accidentally) zhaoed Chinese class. During training, we found out that the gym doesn't open on Thursdays, so KX, Raymond and I were kao pehing about it. So after training we were slacking at the stadium watching the softball tourney and the NDP "contingent" (above) train for the day. Note the " " arount contingent cuz the group is so small they can't even form a bloody squad. I'd join them and do the march for National Day, but I'm not going to for 4 reasons:

1. Their performance is unbelievably pathetic.
2. I cn't find my uniform and badges (did away with most of them I think...my NCC days are behind me)
3. I don't wanna lose face in front of the school because their performance is unbelievably pathetic.
4. Their performance is unbelievably pathetic.

Seriously... they suck, committing just about every possible mistake, especially (to my annoyance if I were the Parade Commander) the birdshit stomp. That's when the flight does a bang that's so pathetically uncoordinated that it sounds like a flock of birds with diarroeah (is that how you spell it?). Paul and Da Zun are still good in their drills and stuff, but the rest of the squad makes them look bad. They can dare to break ranks and laugh when practicing. And that CLT there (not Ian) is just as bad lah, waving his pace stick about the place like he's Battousai or sth. No respect. Seroiusly, if they perform like this on the day itself, the Singapore flag (which they tend to mistreat) will rip itself down from the flagpole in disgrace, and I'll probably get detention for the whole of the month for being the first to laugh and throw rotten eggs at them.

On a lighter note, Friday was more fun. Screwed my Chemistry practical for the first time this year, but enough of that (first time doing thermochemistry practical lah). Went to Uncle Louis coffee shop with Ah Boy, Ali, Pai Kia, Hubert and Hong Boon (we started calling him Meng Nan). Then later had ODAC meeting to discuss the Farewell night. I swear Ah Lam is taking advantage fo his position as director of the skit to put me in compromising situations in the play. And my parodical role as *someone* requires me to act gay. Tai guo fen lohz. I can act Charles gay or Ian gay, but not *someone* gay lah...

Anyway the Orienteering fac (which I'm in) is in charge of games. I think I might use stuff from Jackass The Movie as forfeits or stuff. :D After that we just spent the rest of the time (till 7) slacking and messing around. Me, Ah Lam, Zhi Hui, Ming Song, Kim Wan, Jonathan, Jamie and Shann were slacking at the staduim, this time watching rock climbers and people testing the new flying fox. "Celebrated" Jonathan's birthday today. It really was his birthday, we weren't making an excuse to beat him up. The guys chased him across the track until he nearly ran into the path of someone coming down on the flying fox.

I tell you the ODAC Room needs a damn good clean up; clear out trash, mop the floor and stuff. The conditions are so messy we might even have a Doxy or Boggart infestation and not know it (figure of speech). Well they certainly didn't know of the maggots until Zhe Wei found a God-knows-how-many-months-old packet of lunch crawling with them. And he says still got eggs! Wtf... now we see how much the 19th batch loves us, by leaving us an oversized storeroom where you can play carrom with the maggots (just kidding)

Well I guess I should be going... got debate stuff tml... later... have to attend the MOE Debate Finals and watch them (TPJC wasn't through) at SPRING Singapore. That's all the way in TIONG BAHRU lah...! AH well...

Nitez

The everyday lives of TPJCians

S15 guys slacking at Science Centre Learning Journeys Trip
KC asleep at Mr. Liew's Physics class :P
Yongquan "posing" for picture
Ah Lam asleep at Miss Wong's Maths lecture
I just got bored during physics

I plan to make a series out of this, so expect more photos soon!

Photo memories???

AAAH! I know I said I'd put up a photo entry here, but it's getting late, and blogger is more troublesome compared to Open Diary. I might do it there, cuz I think it's still standing... my old OD blog I mean. Will update soon.

Strip salesman

Miss Leow is leaving us. She said so during today's lesson. She was barely with us for a few weeks and now she's gonna zhao. It's like how Charles put it: This is the 3rd teacher we were growing to like that got replaced. She was cute lah.

Today after school went with HK, Yongquan (aka Ah Boy), Charles (aka Fishy), Hubert, Alex (aka Ah Lam) and Roy (aka Pai Kia) went to Tampines Mart to eat. Bugger the fried rice auntie so damn cheap... for what she gives me for $2.50 I can get elsewhere for a dollar less. Alex guai lan sia..."You see me? 50 cents more get so much more." Then as I was about to start eating Ah Boy was like "Oie Russell! Pray hao le mah?" I see that people do realise I pray before I eat. Not asamed of it or anything.

Haha...as we were crossing Avenue 7 on the overhead bridge we saw Justin, Tak Shing (aka Takfik), Eugene (aka Cute Boy) and a few other 05S15 ppl. Then Ah Boy from the top of the bridge shouted "OIE TAK SHING!" It would've been embarrasing but this is Yongqua we're talking about, so it was just funny. After makan went to slack at the playground. Charles was yakking about something and then...

Fishy: blah blah (can't remember wad he said)
HK: Eh you know you sound like a salesman when you talk like that? Not like those door-to-door salesmen. I'm talking about those street salesman.
Fishy: Really meh?
Ah Boy: Wah strip salesman nia :P

Hysterical, I tell you. Of course that was on purpose. Then he started cracking strip jokes....

We split up later. I went to Challenger to buy printer cartridge, anmd then Tampines Lib to return the field theory book which I borrowed (but hardly found time to touch). That bugger Gaps borrowed a C++ computing book from MP Lib with my card, then he lent the book to his friend, and now it's 2 weeks overdue.

Okie I'm gonna upload pics from my phone to Snapfish to here for my 1st ever photo-based entry for this blog. Which reminds me: I haven't beed doing Random Thoughts entries at all (see my old blog)

Routine weekends and confused souls

My Sundays are getting very routine. Every week is go church and then go out with Edwin, Cheryl and a few others, and it's always either TM or CS. We're so restricted by routine and work that even the fun things are becoming sian. Nevertheless, beating Edwin and David at Outrun 2 was enjoyable.

Something dumb happened to me today, which further emphasized to myself my ineloquence in Chinese. When I went to buy dinner for my family, went to the duck rice stall and ordered duck rice. But instead of saying "bu2 yao4 jia1 la4 jiao1" (don't add chilli) I nearly said "bu2 yao4 jia1 la4 ji1" (don't add rubbish)! I was lucky to stop myself mid-sentence and change what I was going to say, or who knows what would've happened...

I just realised something: before, Kim helped me out by talking me up with one of her more chio friends. So she sent me an email, and Kim wanted me to reply. So did I. But I was busy that day so I put it off ever since.

That was like a few months ago.

Now according to Kim, she's given up or something. Sian lah, obviously. But as disappointed as I feel, I somehow feel I'm taking this better that I would have as a desperate-for-love guy. I guess I'm starting to realise and accept that no matter how much Kim and Yvonne can make fun of me, the fact of the matter is that I'd much rather take a break from the race. I'm not really all out looking for a girlfriend, partially because I haven't met a girl that made me feel like You-know-who (or the You-know-whos) did, and not even she does/they do now. I guess it's like how Jas and Gaps used to philosophise it when I talk to them about this: Enjoy your freedom while you can. And I kinda like it, not only the freedom of being able to hang around different girls, but the freedom of not being tied down to a relationship. I used to think that relationships were liberating to the soul, but now I guess it has its ups and downs.

And another reason I fear may be why I don't wanna get a girlfriend: I may be scared of committment. The very thought of having a relationship now scares me. This isn't right, this can't be right. This isn't me: me who finally wanted to be with someONE for as long as it can go. I guess I need time to mull things over

Old song

Replaced the Final Fantasy VII theme. Just occurred to me that, as nice a song that Artist In The Ambulance is, you kinda get sick of it if you listen to it too many times. Unlike this song, however. ;-)

Missing: Me

This just occurred to me: is it just a coincidence that I'm not in any of the ODAC or debate photos? Or hardly any of the 'for fun' photos of the old PA crew, BV NCC Air and 4E1, Aeromodelling and Teens Connect?

Wah suay...

Latest news that's happened these few days?

Wai Kit's bike got stolen yesterday, and I'm talking about his Scott. The blue one with disc brakes and all, in total costing him $2,100. Gone. Turned his back for a while at Sportslink Bedok Central and turns back only to see some matt ride off with it. He was going "STOP THAT BASTARD!!!" but, as typical Singaporeans, every single passer-by just stared at the scene. Well of course he gave chase, but running vs. a Scott?

He called me later and I rushed off to Bedok Central to help him look, but obviously nothing found. That bike could be anywhere now, either repainted and reused if that guy is stupid, or jumped of every single valuable part and the frame abandoned in some corner if he's smart (which I doubt...damn matt) If now he feels racially prejudiced against all Malays, I don't blame him. Don't entirely agree either, but I understand.

Recently bought and started playing The Sims 2, which was a dumb decision cuz:
1: I'm gonna get even more distracted from my work
2: I'm now in a financial deficit again. JC is getting more expensive. $10 for notes, $10 for yearbook and $30 for ODAC farewell night.
3: HK said I could have used the money to buy Battlechest and play Warcraft with him and their gang online, or start playing DotA myself.

But the game is still fun lah. And out of interest (and residual Harry Potter euphoria) I created a few families from the series, just to see how they turned out. Not bad actually. James Potter is soo incredibly cocky he makes me laugh all the time. Lily is hot (I dunno, but I've got this thing for redheads), and the Malfoys were the most unsociable people I could make them (managed to videotape Lily and Narcissa in an all out brawl) The Weasleys are hard to maintain cuz they're so many of them. Ron is slacking in his studies with overdue homework, but Fred and George are A+ students! Like OMFG what did I do? Hermoine 's getting on pretty well with Harry.

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE SPOILERS APPROACHING (HIGHLIGHT TO REVEAL)

And while we're on the subject of Harry Potter, I was reading Time magazine just now, where they had an article on Jo Rowling. With it were some speculations (and spoilers) on what happens now. I seroiusly doubt Dumbledore will do a Gandalf and come back to life. He took an Avada Kedavra square in the chest at point blank range. Not even he's that good, although I wish he were. The fact that he's gone wasn't the only part that made me feel sick. It was how he died begging for his life, the last thought going through his head was that he trusted Snape implicitly, and now Snape has betrayed him and he now realises he was wrong about Snape all this while. I guess Harry (and Jas) was right about Snape after all. Although here's a theory: He could've been under the influence of the Unbreakable Vow and had no choice but to kill him. But I doubt that's the reason, and it doesn't help the situation anyway. Right now, even if Harry seems to have an idea of what to do, everyone just seems so lost. Oh yeah...after he died, why didn't his portrait in the Headmaster's Office say anything?

Oh yeah something funny happened just now. My sis was playing "lao2 shu3 ai4 da4 mi3" on the stereo set just now. So there was that line "wo ai ni, ai zhe ni, jiu xiang lao shu ai da mi" My dad happened to absentmindedly sing along the words he knew.

Kim: You know the words ah?
Dad: Yeah I know a bit.
Kim: Hmmm...you know what's lao2 shu3 (mouse) ah?
Dad: Yah it means teacher (lao3 shi1)

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! My sis and I were laughing our asses off lah! My dad used to take Chinese until Primary 3 before he switched to Malay, so he only knows basic words roughly. Can't blame him lah.

Okie Inuyasha's showing on TV now so I'm gonna go. Bye.

Kill me now....

And once again I find myself blogging when I should be working.

I'm starting to revert to my old ways again by not updating regularly. I've just been very busy and rather stressed lately. I can feel it in my limbs and my eyes. It's that feeling as though you know you're somehow sick but not the kind of sick that gets you out of school.

I've been going back to my depression mood again. My work is piling inconsiderably. I have to copy out a Chinese compo, do a Chinese article writeup, rewrite my Chinese essay and do a 400-word correction exercise... and it's due in like 10 hours. That Wong is fucking unreasonable. Thought I liked him, but I rather feel like purposely missing his class tml to stick it to him. I know my Chinese is bad, but today's berating was something i didn't like to put up with. Who the fuck d'you think you are?

I managed to buy and finish Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince within 2 days, which is somewhat of a record for me. And I thought that on the day and time of the release (Saturday at 7.01 a.m at Popular), people would be stampeding each other to get copies. I woke up late and strolled into TM Popular at nearly 9. Empty! Wtf? 3 or 4 big boxes of the book still lay there at the counter. When I went there the next day with Cheryl, Small Joe and Edwin, there still were 2 boxes. Very weird....

So I finished it on Sumday night. It's very very different from the other books, and although it was good, as in the usual JK Rowling good, the ending made me sick to my stomach. Not because it was badly written, but cuz of what happened. Have no idea what's gonna happen to everyone now and how they're supposed to pull through. I still feel lousy. Today my mind was plagued by visual re-enactments of the scene at the Astronomy Tower over and over again. Sian....

I feel like collapsing half of the time, out of fatigue, frustration and sheer unwillingness. I'm starting to look more worn down and my mom says my eyes are permanently bloodshot, though I think she's exaggerating again. I wasn't exaggerating about my homework, though, so I'd better go now.

New song :)

Uploaded a new song! It's not that I'm tired of the Final Fantasy VII Theme that's been up here since way back in history from the first day of this blog (last month). It's just that I'm experimenting with new background music. And those people who know me well enough know that I'm a rock music kinda guy, and to tell you the truth the local rock scene (appreciation, local bands, outlook, etc.) is deplorable. I have people (mainly Christians...go figure) telling me how Linkin Park is satanic. So am I going to the "Dark Side" for that? (See previous entry) Dimmu Borgir is truly satanic, drinking goat's blood during concerts and all. I might post a DB song here just to show them, but nah... Linkin Park is what used to be a good nu metal band, but after Collision Course they've lost most of their credibility.

So yeah here's the new song, Artist In The Ambulance by Thrice. Thrice is one of the best in the field; they're not too heavy, kinda like Yellowcard...only nicer :P

"The Artist In The Ambulance"

late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up
and i open bloodshot eyes into fluorescent white
they flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and i am gone

now i lay here owing my life to a stranger
and i realize that empty words are not enough
i'm left here with the question of just
what have i to show except the promises i never kept?
i lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets

[Chorus]
i hope that i will never let you down
i know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound

look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares
it gets me down but i'm still gonna try to do what's right, i know that there's
a difference between sleight of hand, and giving everything you have
there's a line drawn in the sand, i'm working up the will to cross it and

[Chorus]

rhetoric can't raise the dead
i'm sick of always talking when there's no change
rhetoric can't raise the dead
i'm sick of empty words, let's lead and not follow

late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel steal me from the
greedy jaws of death and chance, and pull me in with steady hands
they've given me a second chance, the artist in the ambulance

[Chorus]

can we pick you off the ground, more than flashing lights and sound

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Love this song. Kudos to Thrice for being so good and to tpjc.net for giving me personal webspace to put this song up in the internet. No thanks to whoever decides what CDs get sold in Singapore in what amounts cuz for the life of me I can't find Thrice albums anywhere here.

The true nature of the Force

Warning: Very long, very dry, very nerdy entry about the expanded Star Wars universe approaching. There's a more bearable entry for today below. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Ever since I took a more profound interest in the Star Wars universe, I've witnessed numerous lightsaber battles, on screen and in games, and I've seen how the Force is used by the Jedi and how it was taught, by the New Jedi Order and the Old Jedi Order of c. 4000 BBY. Ive watched them, and I've always wondered, and believed, that there was something naggingly wrong about their teachings. Material possessions, attatchments and love are forbidden in a Jedi's life from when he or she is a Youngling (although the New Order is more lax). Wouldn't this make temptation's job so much easier, thereby somewhat perpetuating the fall to the Dark Side? The Jedi's life is one of sacrifice and hardship, so doesn't it seem tempting if one had a seemingly easier choice?

I've also seen the kind of training undergone by Sith on Korriban during the New Sith Wars. Knights of the Old Republic really opened my eyes to Sith practices and ideaologies. The way they go on only one student makes it through as a full fleged Sith from a group of 6 or so, and you never know when your friend or apprentice is going to usurp or betray you to claim your position. It's no wonder Darth Bane resurrected the concept of "One Master, One Apprentice" for the Sith.

The way they go on about the Dark Side all the time implies that it is somewhat evil, and yet it is derived from the Force, which encapsulates all living things in the galaxy. How is it that something like this that occurs naturally and binds all living things together have such a drastic "alter ego" with such detrimental effects? Personally, I don't feel that the Dark Side is corrupt and evil; it is just a stereotype due to the kind of people that the Dark Side is naturally linked to. Right off from the start with Xendor, the first heretical Jedi, down through Exar Kun and Darth Revan to Darth Vader and Desaan, the Dark Side and its users were labelled as evil.

What I believe is that these people turned to the path of evil, and the people that propagated such thoughts just so happened to embrace the "Dark Side". Xendor had new beliefs about the Force and achieved his power through raw emotion, and because of that he and his comrades here exiled from the Order. It's the seed of rejection and isolation that drove him to evil. And frankly speaking, the Sith of that time weren't that evil; the brutality and senseless in fighting and civil supremacy is just an overblown ideaology. The Sith of 4000 BBY were but a mere shadow of the true Sith. People turned to evil not becouse of the Dark Side, but due to other circumstances.

Exar Kun, one of the most feared Dark Lords of the Sith of the great Sith War, was turned to evil because of his arrogance and rashness, and because the ancient Sith Lords poisoned him against the Jedi. Ulic Qel-Droma fell because he was doing undercover missions amongst the Sith and was seeking revenge for the death of his master. Revan had to give in to the Dark Side because the darkness of the Trayus Sith Academy would have killed him otherwise. Darth Vader was turned to evil because his mind was poisoned by Sidious, while his intentions were mainly to achieve power enough to save Padme. Desaan fell because of his arrogance and overconfidence, which led him to want more out of the Force and o strike a fellow Jedi student down in cold blood. I could go on forever.

My point is that the Dark Side is not evil; it's just used for evil purposes. I've seen the Light Side, and I've used the Dark Side, and I've always thought that, contrary to Jedi belief, the true Jedi Master has maximum mastery in both fields, and yet still has sense enough to know how to fight the good fight. If you ask me to take a preference on a side, I'd choose Dark. Your power is derived from passion and aggression, something that drives you to your goals. Of course that doesn't mean I neglect the Light. The Light helps one be at peace with himself, something the Dark cannot do. So you can see in this sense a conscious balance of the two is the best, as you possess the good qualities of the two, which help support and balance each other, or you'll end up being a pacifist, or killing all your friends.

When Joshua, Jeremy and I meet up one of our favourite things to discuss is Star Wars. Joshua was telling me on how Luke realised after the Yuuzhan Vong War that the force shouldn't be concentrated on in the Light or Dark in specific. I used to think he meant that in a Ying and Yang sort of way, until I stumbled across an article about the Jedi in Wikipedia:

After the war with the Yuuzhan Vong was over, Luke realized that the order would have to further adapt in order to survive. His experiences had led him to believe that the Force was not rigidly divided into a light and a dark side. Strong emotions, including anger, were not intrinsically evil - instead it was the intentions of the Force user that mattered the most. Luke came to believe that nearly everyone, regardless of their heritage, had some ability to touch and use the Force. He also felt that individual Jedi (and other Force users) would need to discover their own paths: that some could be called to contemplative life, while others would feel a need to take a more active role in galactic affairs, like the old-style Jedi. Because the Jedi had no single goal, he felt the Jedi Order as a whole should remain carefully aloof of its allegiance to the Galactic Alliance or any succeeding government.

So I guess I was kinda right. So I sit in my room and think about this for a night and I end up being just about more correct than all the Jedi have been for the past 15,000 years.

Cool :P

PS sorrie for going all geeky and Star Wars on everyone. this is just something I've been thinking abot for ages.

Groundhog Day

No it isn't suddenly Groundhog Day. Singapore doesn't have groundhogs. This entry's just named after the titular movie cuz, due to the Sea Sports Carnival yesterday (which I zhaoed cuz I wasn't feeling well) we "reused" Monday's timetable for Tuesday. So yah...

Today Kai Xiang seems very off, like something's eating him, cuz he's not as sprightly as he usually is. He denies anything being the matter, but I guess so would I. Think I should let him ride it out and not badger him. He should be back to normal tml.

The dumbest thing about reusing Monday's timetable today was that my first 2 periods was Chemistry lecture, except that there was no lecture cuz all the Chemistry teachers are busy invigilating SPAs. To the 6 plus classes were left sitting in LT1 like dumbasses for a while and then slowly we all left. Within 1/2 an hour of the "lecture" ending I think everyone vacated the LT and made for the canteen or the library. Who says TPJC doesn't have a unified spirit?

While I was writing a Chinese compo in the library today I heard some familiar giggling and I looked up to see Joanne and Jamie. It's pretty obvious that their visas for First-Three-Months Land haven't expired as far as they're concerned, cuz when they spotted me Joanne was like "You wanna play cards?" Wow... I thought I was slack...

Today's GP lesson was damn funny. Miss Yap took over this period from Miss Leow to finish the mass media lessons from last term. FYI Miss Leow is quite young, around 20's, but Miss Yap looks like she's hitting 50 soon (although I'm sure Alex would like to contest for a much older age). So when Yap entered the class, Chingx was like "HAH?! Miss Leow what happened to you?!" I dunno if that was on purpose (probably is...Chingx isn't that slow) but her reaction was classic man. Then later Yap was talking about rubbish shows on TV and she mentioned Patricia Mok. Then Alex said "Eh Miss Yap look like Patricia Mok hor?" At first I chuckled, but I then considered what he said and had a good look at her, and I did everything I could to stop myself from laughing too hard. Yongquan wasn't so concerned with subtleties, though. When Alex told him the same thing he immediately was like "WAH CHER!!!..." and was probably about to tell Yap about her resemblance, but then decided against it. Smart guy. YQ is never the guy for subtleties, even in class, and that's why he's so exuberantly refreshing from other people. Later Yap was talking about how in Cambodia they kill teachers to prevent ideaological uprisings or something like that. I was bored sick of the lesson so I said to Alex "Can we start now?" YQ heard me and immediately got off his chair and started cracking his knuckles! I swear man!

TPJC didn't get into the quarter-finals of the JCDCs. Found this out from Joel's blog, but am yet to know what Miss Kon's reaction is. Think she said Tampines has always been making it to the quarters. Meridian and National didn't get in either, but Serangoon and Catholic did. Talk about injustice.

I have a shitload of work to get through and here I am blogging. I need to start getting my priorities straight.

Ignts...

Sunday was the lamest Sunday ever. Went to church where I met the TC gang and then went to the canteen to eat. Halfway through Joseph Snr., David and Cheryl had to leave for a while for a meeting with the new Youth Coordinator I think. Hope getting a YC means more recognition in church soon. It'd be really cool to be instated as an official church ministry. We might get a room too soon :D

So yeah, they were back soon. Then the gang of us (including Joan, Edwin, Joseph Jr. and Kim) went to eat at Century Square (which is opposite TM) at the Dim Sum shop in the basement. Then we went walking around and David and Joan had to leave early, and then Big Joseph (I think I'll start calling them Big Joe and Small Joe, like how 05S15 differentiates between Big Gab and Small Gab), and Kim later (cuz Dad called her). She always leaves early... So the rest of us crashed at Cheryl and Small Joe's house, where I found out how hyper and high she can get, playing with her little stuffed doggie and playing tech deck with mahjong tiles. I was rather flabbergasted, especially after:

Russ: You're all nuts, man.
Cheryl: Yep, and you're corn! :D

Then I was like -_-" I never thought anyone could tell colder jokes than Jas or Sam, but I stand corrected. We ate at a coffee shop nearby and then went home, which was when I just realised that it was 8 pm, and because of JCDCs, I haven't gotten a single piece of school work done ALL WEEK. Boy was I screwed. Well I suppose I have legitimate reasons (except that I was at Cheryl's house playing mahjong, dai dee and Uno Stacko)

That night, the wierdest thing happened to me. It was funny, scary and totaly unexpected for me. Some stranger just added me on MSN via the directory and asked me for cybersex. I was seroiusly taken aback, cuz she introed herself (crazy NYP student) and then asked me if I masturbate. I was like no wtf... then she sed "You in to cybersex? See my tits" And she changed her display pic to I suppose you can guess. That was when I had enough and I quickly blocked her. For 3 reasons:

1. Kim was in the room.
2. I wasn't ready to lose my virtual virginity. -_-"
3. How do I know she was a girl? I sound paranoid, but after I saw this clip at the Kontraband website, I began to think. Go check it out if you want. The worst part of it is censored. If certain sensitive ppl feel offended, wait for the end. It's worth it. And if certain ppl also like unplugging their speakers, this clip has no sound... hahaha...

So yeah I was a bit shocked at the time. When I told Jas she was laughing her ass of and said "I told you not to talk to strangers." Talk about consoling. But now that I look back on it, it was kinda funny. Lemme clarify: the idea of cybersex doesn't scare me. The fact that she was a complete stranger was the scary bit. We were talking for barely 30 seconds when she asked me the masturbate question. So far I think the only girl I was talking to about masturbating was Lizhen (if I forgot anyone please tell me) So yeah a bit of a shock for me, especially since I've never been to an annonymous chatroom before. You may think that's sad, but I'm just conservative when it comes to certain things.

Colorgenics

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Took this test from a link Cheryl gave me. And it clearly expresses my mood patterns ever since the debate champoinships. So this is what it said:

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behavior.
Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.
You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.
Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

No you're wrong, and even if you're right you're still wrong

I suppose that sentence will only make sense to a debator. Think it's called a 2nd degree rebuttal or sth. I suppose that not even all debators understand it, but if you hang around with Miss Kon long enough you probably will.

Have been really really busy and tired these few days cuz I've been working on preparing for the JC Debate Championships. It's times like this where you realise a lot of things about yourself. When I'm very exhausted I either get very high or very irritable, and basically I've been very irritable these few days. Not to mention stressed, sleep-deprived and increasingly moody. Moody not just because of tight schedules, but when I'm overworked I lose my sense of humour about everything, and Joel's bitchiness and annal habits were really irritating.

So basically it was 8 a.m to 7 p.m of nothing but debates from Tuesday to Friday (9 p.m on Friday). I was seriously pushed to my limits during that period, for I didn't have time to do anything else. Not even school! (Wad pon sch?! Alex kao peh sia.. lolz) When I got home, I'd hit the showers inmediately and bring my dinner into my room and eat and work at the same time. I was that overworked, cuz no matter how well you think you have your case, Miss Kon can probably shred it to pieces. So we had to keep working in it, writing and rewriting our speeches, up to the point that I couldn't think straight at all and developed some sort of attention defecit disorder, where I can hear what you're saying but not what you have to say. I hope I'm making sense. I've been through ODAC camps, OBS and NCC camps that test me physically, but the mental stress here was a lot for me. Not like anything I've been through.

The debate was okie. Joel, Yasmeem and Gautam debated against Hwa Chong. We lost by a narrow margin. Yasmeen, Gautam and I went up against Meridian. We won unanimously. I was extra stressed prior to the debate, because this was my first time doing reply speech. But when I was on the floor I was on fire! Haha... but mainly cuz I was a bit pissed, cuz they misinterpreted us and a lot of things. But we won... yayy! Glad that's over.

Results don't come out till Monday. If we don't get in, it's bad cuz all our effort is gone. If we get in, it's bad cuz it means more stressful weeks ahead.

Another delayed entry

Lets see...

This was my original itinery for last Sunday:
1. Go for 6.45 a.m. mass.
2. Hang at Sunday market at BV with Kit from 8 plus till 10 plus
3. Meet the teens connect gang at 10 plus to 11 and hang together indefinitely.

This is what actually happened:
I woke up late for 6.45 mass so I had to go for the 8.00 one. The problem? That was the Chinese service. And although I knew this beforehand, I had no choice but to go for it cuz of my tight schedule. So I tried not to look like a retard while I tried to follow the mass, but I knew what was going on, just not what was being said.

It turns out that Sunday market started only at 10. So I went back home to help my mom bring stuff there. Although I don't study there anymore, she's still attached to the school, basically because the parents' committee will crumble to pieces if she left. I did meet Kit there (Zi Xiang was tagging along) but I only could hang for 15 minutes and then leave for TM to meet the TC gang. Kit told me that apparently Regina was going to be there at 1, but I wasn't planning on returning to BV anyway, unless the TC gang left for home early for some freakish reason. Oh yah hi Deb! Sunday market was a little fun. Chocolate coated marshmallows!

Met the gang at 11 (late), and the group of us (Edwin, Cheryl, both Josephs, Desmond, Joy, my sis Kim, Juliana and Ignatius. Mel and Sam left early) went to watch A Lot Like Love. Must say it was better than I expected, but still not worth bloody $9.50 (War Of The Worlds was worth that much). And after that we went walking around deciding what to do. Kim left us halfway and apparently met *someone*. The rest of us went to play pool. My pool is getting worse. I lost to Edwin and kept making stupid shots. And after that the gang wanted to hang at Edwin's house, but I had to leave cuz apparently it was my niece Heather's birthday.

Went to Pasta Fresca at East Coast where they had a nice party set up for her with a magician for the kids and all. I just ate and sat around cuz I didn't feel like having fun.

If you were with me that day, this was why I was moody the whole time: I spoke to Miss Tan YS at Sunday market and apparently Miss Peh's condition isn't getting better. She's had cancer for 3 years now, and it could finally be getting to her. She's still undergoing chemo and now she's on long term leave. I dunno what exactly is she going through right now. That's why I have to visit her soon.

Monday was the lousiest Youth Day I had. Well one good thing happened. Passed my golf handicap test finally. And then I had to rush off for bloody debate meeting. We're preparing for JCDC which happens this Saturday and is the most important debate competition there is here, although I frankly have better things to worry about.

Today was the first day of school after the holidays, and the first thing they slap in my face is an incomprehensible (to me) lecture on electric fields. Hvae to read up. Then it's the AO level pass for my Physics common test, which is not good considering I take A level Physics. And then more debate training from 4 till nearly 7.30. I want out from this bloody competition lah. I've got too much work to handle now.

I fell tired, and sick. And I have the proposition case due tml and a GP and a Chinese essay due Thursday. What am I doing here?!

Bye.

*Farts*

Friday was fun sia. Chinese listening compre was the only (and last) paper that day. So that meant I got up at 6 in the morning and dress up for school, only to be there for an hour tops. After that Alex and KX and gang went off for Ian's birthday patry gathering thingy, but I had bloody PW meeting with my teacher and group, while a few other 05S15 guys hung around. So after the meeting, I went with Eugene (cute boy), Yongquan, Charles, Roy and Hubert to Tampines Mart McD. There we were crapping about things from walking down haunted roads to clubbing (Charles going to rave at Md Sultan Rd nia) to Mapling! (havent Maple for damn long lohz) Then on the way to the bus stop Yongquan and I suddenly started making farting sounds (with our hands, thank you) and talking about them (he makes bony butt fart sounds, and mine are the wet kinds). Wah lame sia!

After that Wai Kit and Wei Kheam came to my place to slack and do push ups in my room to make me feel bad. And suddenly, out of impulse, while we were looking at speakers at Challenger (I still need new ones) we suddenly zhaoed to Kembangan to pia Generals. Haven't play for damn long, so it was shiok :D

That night had some function at the clubhouse, but all I cared about was the food :P Nth much to say about that.

Nth interesting ever happens sia...but that day was fun lah